Long Story Short 2011

It's been a long time since I've written anything in this blog. I haven't had access to a computer for a really long time. Things with being a mother is tough, specifically because I don't get the chance to be a mother anymore. I went to Job Corps for nine months, trying to become a stable mother for Alina. during my ninth month there, I got a call from my dads apartment manager saying that he needed someone to come and take care of him in Oregon. So I spent my last two days working my ass off to complete my trade, succeeded, and hopped on a plane to Oregon. Doing so, I had to leave Alina behind, at least for a little while. I was hoping that Steven would cooperate with me, and let me see her on her vacations from school (which she'll be starting soon) but he refused to let her come to Oregon in order to see me. I told him that I couldn't stay in California for weeks at a time because I didn't have anywhere to live with Alina and I couldn't afford a week long stay at a hotel. He said, and I quote, "I've been raising ali this whole time alone and by myself with no help at all and I want her to stay here and not leave the state." I talked to my lawyer and her and I have decided that it would be best for Alina if I were to get my life together before taking Steven back to court. Until then, I can only see her when I can afford to fly down there, rent a hotel, and rent a car for however long I can see her for. I miss her so much... it's been a couple months since I've seen her in real life, I've seen her once on webcam since the last time I saw her. It's killing me. I Love her more than anything and I can't see her. I'm working my ass off, and one day, I'll be able to see her on a regular basis. Don't worry sweetheart, I won't give up on you...